Tuesday, April 16, 2002

I kind of miss the way things used to be.. so simple... I just realized that I've gone completely craxy.. I feel like shit a lot.. not sure ... I don't like it at all. of course. and you know what i'm talking about. i know you know and i know you know i know you know i know.. so it all works out right? well, maybe not. you know yesterday my mom told me that i should just go for my goal and write a book. i really want to.. but at the same time.. how would i ever get published... she doesn't realize that my latest poems and stories have been so down hearted and just plain angry or sad. i suppose that i should write something like.. up beat or something like that...
ya, so now, it's um.. what? like.... wow.... a long time from then that's for sure! let me update you! I am queen bitch now... I am going out with Anthony, who i can see myself honestly marrying... and having his children. I love him with all my heart.. yet I still talk with EriK... yes... i'm no good. I'm a bad person, but we all live and get on with things right? I don't want to be the reason he is upset. I want him to feel good. I dunno what I'm doing I'll have to figure something out! AND SOON!